Yesterday was such a good today. And tonight–not so much.
To be honest, I’m not sure what has left me feeling like this. No, that’s a lie too. I know exactly why I’m feeling so blah. I think. It’s other people’s perspectives of me. I always thought that I came off as a nice person. I’m shy, sure, but apperently one persons shy is another persons evil death glare.
Ugh, I’m not even sure why I care so much about other people’s opinons of me, but they matter. And now I’m left feeling awful, like a horrible person, and downright wretched. All I wish is that Andrew was here instead of on the other side of the harbour. I should really just close my eyes, get some sleep, and not think so much about other people’s opinions. But all I can think about is “what if people think I’m a huge giant bitch”… and it’s bothering the hell out of me.
A secluded tropical island has never looked so ideal.